Tomorrow I reach 37 weeks so I can start accepting labour vibes. In theory I want to go into labour as soon as possible but I'm a bit worried that I might be jinxing myself. I've read a bit on the pschological impact our emotions can have on going into labour and our birth experience and I'm beginning to feel that I'm in the wrong headspace for a positive birth experience. When Yasin was born my waters broke and I went into hospital feeling that I was going to have a baby by the afternoon but then I didn't go into labour and Yasin wasn't born until a few long and traumatic days later (his birth story is here if you have alot of time on your hands).
I sometimes wonder if maybe I stopped Yasin's labour because I was tired and started to stress out a bit and now I'm beginning to wonder if I'm going to psych myself into another horrible birthing experience. With Yasin my goal was to have a natural birth but I only just avoided a c-sect and afterwards I really felt upset about the way things turned out. Now I'm facing labour a second time with the same goals but but I think that in the modern hospital environment its quite hard to achieve a natural birth without being committed to it; I'm finding it hard to fully commit myself in that whilst I know that its what I want my head is full of the what-if's and I feel that for as long as I doubt my ability to have an active natural birth I am undermining my ability to achieve it - does this make any sense :-k 8-[ .
I'm trying to reassure myself that second births are differant and statistically women use far less intervention in second and subsequent labours.
I was just wondering if anyone who has understood my confused ramblings can share some tips as to how to overcame my fears about labour and birthing before D-day arrives.