Thanks everyone.

BM - Isn't it madness? I think the mental battle is harder than the birth! Hang in there, not long for both of us. This will all be over by June for sure!

sas85 - I think 2/5 is more engaged than 3/5, so that isnt backwards progress.

tobily - thanks for those two stories. I wish I didn't have to go and see my GP weekly, because the information he gives me (which I am not sure is correct) just serves as stimulus for stress. Today he said that first babies often don't engage until birth, but subsequent babies engage from about 34-36 weeks. I thought it was the opposite? He also thought I was now 3/5ths, but it was a super quick visit and he must have spent three or four seconds feeling my belly. Bubs is also posterior.

dou - you are so right about forgetting the dates. I have been trying to mentally reset my countdown now so that 42w or 40w+10 is the due date. 3 weeks at most to go.

*deep breaths*

I think I just need to relax and visualise this baby coming out, vaginally, head first, the way nature intended.