Birth 1: Hospital, Midwives, long labour, c-sect delivery d/t maternal exhaustion
Did you use any drugs in your birth? yes, gas, sleeping tablet, epidural, syntocin
Did you have complications during your birth? baby hr dropping when syntocin used.
Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation? Not so much, I actually felt empowered during the labour, but maybe a bit disengaged during the 'birth'. I was pretty resigned to the outcome of csect as I felt it was a decision I made in the end and I could see the labour was going no where as it was. I was very disappointed in the repercussions of the csect - challenges breast feeding, problems with scar healing, problems bonding etc. That took me a long time to work through

Birth 2: Home, independant midwives, short labour, natural birth (VBAC)
Did you use any drugs in your birth? None
Did you have complications during your birth? None
Did you experience any feelings of dissapointment, disempowerment and traumatisation? Hell No! Joyous, empowering, positive. It certainly helped being away from the medical model in my opinion!