Ryn, my heart goes out to you. It sounds like you were very strong and courageous in a difficult situation that was not as supportive as it should have been. You did awesome.

If there is a next time, if it's still a given that dh will not be in your corner concerning your birth choices, I hope that you will find just the right doula or support person to be by your side so that you have at least one person in your corner who is there only to serve your purposes and stand with you for your rights and preferences.

Healing hugs to you Ryn.