I think you guys have touched on something important - I hate not being in control. I hate the fact that I don't know when I'll go into labour, how long I will be in labour for, if the pain will be greater than it was for the others.

I'm scared that it will hurt more and I won't cope - like, worse than I how I was with DD2.

This one is so different, maybe because it was an accidental pregnancy? With DD2 I was so driven and determined to prove everyone wrong that I had that to fuel my desire to get through labour. DD3 was fueled for my desire to do better than I did with DD2.

But this one - I have nothing driving me, so I think its scaring me that I don't have anything else pushing me to get through this, its just all me.

Huh. That could be something to work on.

Oh and Cricket, I've read Ina May recently and have taken notes and will have them by my side during the labour. I guess I just don't have any faith in myself to get through it again.