Thanks girls, it is very tough and I have to say I am very jealous of those who get that beautiful birth experience.
Yes I do need to talk about this, I did'nt realize howmuch until I started to read and type. The rest of my births are as follows:
I went on to have 3 late first trim MCs then I got my beautiful boy, again a posterieor baby who mangaed to break my waters butnot send me into labour, I was induced after trying lots of natural methods to get him moving, but... in the end my waters had been broken for too long and he was medically inducded, only o get into distress when mild labour started??? ending in CS..
DD started out well, no waters breaking first labour progressed well, no crazy pain or the like until 8cms where I stayed for hours my OB came and broke my waters which were mecoinium stained, baby was showing signs of distress, he allowed me a bit longer then checked me again, still no progress!!! He was hopefully of reaching her but not close enough, so after 15 hours of labour I had another CS, she was a big bub and had a groove around her head where she had tilted to prevent coming any further she weighed 9pound 10 ounces.
Another 3MC's
Last DD bubs no4, I went VBAC2 very excited to get the chance to try again, knew that the reality was slim, but still wanted to try, I knew I had to progress well and fairly quickly was'nt going to take any chances, she was'nt overly big according to US, my scar loooked good through the layers as well as externally. It all started well, waters broke but labour started, I had to go to hospital about 3 hours after contractions started, I was checked to make sure my waters where broken and I was 3cm dilated, contractions were regular and strong every couple of mins for about 30 seconds. I was so hopefull that this was the one.. baby was happy!!! contractions got stronger more often and longer and in my back again lots of blood and waters gushing the midwife was convincedt hat a baby was'nt far off?? I started to feel wimpy and asked for gas, which did'nt do much, I had the feeling I needed to push, but also knew it was'nt time, just pressure in my bottom I guess from her postion? After being there for a few hours I asked for another internal, I needed to know that I was going well, my doc had told me 6-8 hours to reduced the risk of uterine rupture?? I measured 3 cms......??????? I lost it, I was scared for my baby, I knew nothing was going to change.. I could'nt believe that I could be in labour so strongly and still be there(3cms), this was about 1am in th e morning, i begged fro the CS thats when the talk started about waiting till the morning and seeing how things were, exactly what my doc told me to avoid, I became really afraid, I know the risk of rupture is slim, they have to tell you everything when weighing up to go VBAC especially second time around, but... I did'nt want to be the slim chance... midwife went and rang doc on duty, I told her to tell him I was booked for a CS, (JIC I went overdue, plus I got my OB whom I trusted) and I wanted to have it. She came back and said, he would come. Another internal was done 8cms was the verdict, OMG was all I could think can I keep trying, yes but not for long theatr was being set up everyone was coming in... great just my luck.. would he just help me I asked, I doubt it when everything is ready to go bubs would have to be coming out???
When he got there is was in thertre waitng, I had already had the epidural done, I asked him if he could help me delivery VB, he did the internal a few quiet words were said then he came and told DH that a mistake ahd been made and I was only 3cms still???? CS was performed, by that stage I was relieved to have my baby girl in my arms fit an d healthy, later the midwife apologized and said it was hard to tell as my cervix had become loose and flopppy??? I don't know...???they do 1000 births a year and a lot of the staff are part time, it seems like a pretty big mistake though. But having said that I think the chances CS after CS and even more so after 2 of them, are greatly increased for lots of reasons, I think you need to be in a big hospital , need experinced staff, need a doula or private midwife and ttrust in your body that you can do it (easier said than done)even then I think it is a tall order. Given there is a time limit etc.
I'm just glad I did'nt have to do this 50-100 years ago without help and CS I think I would have given birth to dead of seriously injured babies and and maybe even died myslef..
Well I guess at the end of it all I got a naturalouchie drug free VB and i got to labour for 3 subsequent births and came close!!! But I still can't help feeling a bit ripped off until I look at my beautiful babies, then it does'nt really matter how they got here.
labour progressed well, no crazy pain or the like until 8cms where I stayed for hours my OB came and broke my waters which were mecoinium stained, baby was showing signs of distress, he allowed me a bit longer then checked me again, still no progress!!! He was hopefully of reaching her but not close enough, so after 15 hours of labour I had another CS, she was a big bub and had a groove around her head where she had tilted to prevent coming any further she weighed 9pound 10 ounces.
lots of blood and waters gushing the midwife was convincedt hat a baby was'nt far off?? I started to feel wimpy and asked for gas, which did'nt do much, I had the feeling I needed to push, but also knew it was'nt time, just pressure in my bottom I guess from her postion? After being there for a few hours I asked for another internal, I needed to know that I was going well, my doc had told me 6-8 hours to reduced the risk of uterine rupture?? I measured 3 cms......??????? I lost it, I was scared for my baby, I knew nothing was going to change.. I could'nt believe that I could be in labour so strongly and still be there(3cms), this was about 1am in th e morning, i begged fro the CS thats when the talk started about waiting till the morning and seeing how things were, exactly what my doc told me to avoid, I became really afraid, I know the risk of rupture is slim, they have to tell you everything when weighing up to go VBAC especially second time around, but... I did'nt want to be the slim chance... midwife went and rang doc on duty, I told her to tell him I was booked for a CS, (JIC I went overdue, plus I got my OB whom I trusted) and I wanted to have it. She came back and said, he would come. Another internal was done 8cms was the verdict, OMG was all I could think can I keep trying, yes but not for long theatr was being set up everyone was coming in... great just my luck.. would he just help me I asked, I doubt it when everything is ready to go bubs would have to be coming out???
ouchie drug free VB and i got to labour for 3 subsequent births and came close!!! But I still can't help feeling a bit ripped off until I look at my beautiful babies, then it does'nt really matter how they got here.
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