#1 was the most hardest and painful. That said, i think it was due to me having a mw that didnt help or guide me with what to do properly. I remember being very nervous going in to have #2 because i had felt myself tear with #1 and it was awful. My mw listened to me and told me she could help me not to tear but i had to listen to her and stop pushing if she said to etc. I did and didnt tear. #2 labour was longer, but alot more controlled due to my mw being supportive i beleive.

Every one since then has been easier and controlled due to supportive mw's and me knowing what to do more each time. Even my posterior baby was better than #1 birth.