good on you for getting through all that! it is disgusting the way they treated you! a friend of mine had her baby at 21 (not even that young really) but they treated her as if she hadnt planned on the pregnancy and knew nothing about labour and birth. she said they really dumbed everything down for her and were really patronising with the way they talked to her. that makes me really mad!! whats worse in your case is that the medical treatment you got was ridiculously ****ty! but next time you will be stronger and wiser and get the birth you want! :-)