Thanks hun, i am certainly glad i did try, there was never any doubt i would to be honest schedualing a ceaser just didnt sit right for me.
I still feel that i somewhat failed as theres aways those "what if" questions that could have somehow changed the outcome. But i know deep down that i didnt have any control over him becoming distressed and i gave it the best shot i could
I think the what if haunt us for life as birth is one of the only things we can never re do til we get it right because with every different child there is a new element we havent considered! Well thats what i have found.....

Congratulations again it was a well written story and i think it will help other women trying to VBAC!

Thanks for not thinking i was asking a too personal question