Everything you write is so detailed and emotional!! i was a bit teary too. CONGRATULATIONS on a beautiful baby girl and Im so sorry for your awful experience. It was good to see though, that amongst the not so good things, you did have some good times during your labour. Most importantly you had all your special people there and your baby girl was born safely and healthily.
VERY BEST OF LUCK for the next birth, and I truly hope you get your home birth.
I swear, the job of Dr's is only to make us worry!
xoxoxo