You just described my labour, except I didn't have syntocin but I guess the gel they used for induction had the same effect. I so desperately wish she could have been born on her own terms. I also screamed the house down and felt every agonising moment, especially my cervix stretching and the passage out through the ring of fire. I never found a calm place at all.

You are an amazing woman, helly, because you endured that agony and you pushed through it! I know I wanted it over so badly, but we made it through to the other side. I hope you find the pride you should have in knowing that.