Hayley's birth story (may be distressing) has alot of bits and pieces
My story of the birth of Hayley May
She was one very wanted baby. After 1.5 years of TTC we finally became pregnant. Very apprehensively we got through the pregancy. I feel I always knew something was going to go wrong. It was all too good to be true.
It got towards the end of the pregnancy about 37 weeks when I was getting so anxious. So anxious looking back I think I needed medication TBH. At my 38 week appt I told them how I was feeling and about my dreams that I was going to leave hospital empty handed. When I went back for monitoring for my BP the dr gave me a S&S at 38+3. The next day I lost my plug.
So came the 40w appointment. They couldnt find my file. GREAT. Then my name was called and it was the person who I never wanted to see. She only had a piece of paper and said "Well, we cant find your file, dont worry it happens from time to time.. so I know nothing about you!" ... okay.. The usual appt went by and I said Id like another S&S. She bluntly told me she doesnt believe in them and that if the first one didnt work OBVIOUSLY a second wouldnt. SO I made another appt for 41w and noticed on the slip that it had "tracked to birth suite" on it. WHY DIDNT THEY GO AND GET IT? Seriously? I would have gone to get it. I got to my car and I started hyperventilating and crying, I called DP and vented to him.
Monday 21/3/11
At about 1.30pm I felt a weird kinda movement thing I thought that was weird. At about 2pm I started getting some pains thinking they were BH I went to Safeway did some shopping and stuff then came home. At about 4pm maybe they really started to ramp up. I called the hospital at about 6pm and said the contractions were 6mins apart lasting for like 30 seconds. She said to stay home and monitor them. At about 7pm maybe or a little later I called back and said I just couldnt handle the pain anymore so she said to come in. When we got in she put the trace on and Hayleys HR was 180 and I was in excruiciating pain. This indian dr came in and sat there looking at the trace. her HR wasnt going from 180. He put in a cannula then suddenly there was another 3-4 doctors in there monitoring her.
Then a few minutes later this dr that was holding the thing on my tummy said that its gone to 50 CALL A CODE. Then Im being asked to get on a trolley. They are yelling to each other to call theatre, get the lift, the door and whatnot. Poor DP was standing there not knowing what to do he ended up coming with me. I was crying asking whats going on etc. I get wheeled into theatre and patslided over to the bed. They were asking me all these questions. I could feel the dr giving me an internal and then the catheter went in. All this while I have a mask on my face and I was getting stripped and the cold betadine being rubbed on my belly.
Then I was out cold.
I woke up and DP was standing next to me. I was saying wheres my baby, wheres my baby is she alright? The dr then told me she didnt make it. DP said I just howled NOOOO. And sobbed. Then a bit later Hayley was brought to us. God she was beautiful, just stunning. I started to shake her, trying to make her wake up but she didnt. TBH I dont remember heaps of this bit because I was so drugged. I do remember they took me to the normal ward to a room right next to the nursery. I could hear all these screaming babies. Then they came in and asked if we wanted to go back to the birth suite so we did.
We didnt know anything that happened. The dr came in and said that when they got Hayley out she wasnt breathing. They worked on her for 40 minutes, I lost 900mls of blood and she was so distressed in there that there was so much meconium They dont really know why yet but their guess is Placental abruption.
We miss our baby so much. It hurts in places that you didnt know you had. I went to hospital thinking that Im going to have a baby we left with a teddy bear and some photos. Im grateful for the time we had with her. We got 2 days with her. I still cant believe we made something so beautiful.
Hayley May R
21/3/11 8.41pm
7pd 6oz HC 34cm Length 51cm
chick i am so very sorry that you left with a teddy and not your beautiful girl. I really wish that there was something could do to help you. It is a pain no mother should have to feel xoxo
I am just lost for words. I could never express how sorry I am and how horrific this must have been for you. Thankyou for sharing your story and the picture of your beautiful Hayley. You will always be her mummy.
The most hugest hugs in the world, I am so sorry that you had to endure all of that incompetence from the hospital staff re your file etc. You are right - it wouldn't have taken too long to get the file.
Your darling Hayley is gorgeous and I am so thankful to have been able to see her. Thank you for sharing her with us, thank you for also sharing the story of her birth. Love and hugs to you xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
My gosh, Hayley is absolutely beautiful. I am so very sorry she couldn't stay. My heart is breaking for you.
Massive hugs & love to you. Thank you for sharing her birth story
Reply With QuoteThe whole thing just sucks
I'm sorry Hayley didn't get to go home with you, and she's so beautiful...
Hayley's birth story (may be distressing) has alot of bits and pieces
You must have been so terrified...
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