Ivy's birth 27/4/09

[Santosha]

Thanks wonderful women, your kind words mean more than you know. All adds to the healing. xoxoxoxoxo

[*TripleJ*]

omg i still cant believe i never read this wat an awesome story u were awesome i would have been begging for drugs too the peth was enough for me even though i regret it now after having a totally natural 2nd birth but wats done is done and now look to the future and upcoming birth and FWIW i was way more scared the second time around even though it turned out better

[appletree]

I can honestly say that this is the single most courageous and honest birth story i have ever read, and i could not tell you the number of birth stories i have read in search of the even the smallest remotest shred of similarity to my first experience of birth and how i felt about it. Your insight and ability to express yourself is incredible, i hope that this next birth for you is everything that you want it to be.

I really struggled during my second birth to conquer the emotional barriers that i had built from my first experience, despite all of the preparation and healing i tried to do. But in the end, my body over rid my mind anyway and i had no other option but to trust in myself and break those barriers without looking back. When i got through to the other side, i felt invincible! I truly hope that this time round you to experience this!

Thank you for not only posting it, but bumping so i could read it It has had such a big impact on me!

[My Three Sons]

Ah, see the power you have, Not only to try to start to heal yourself, but to help others too!

Thanks for bumping it, will be easier for me to find next time too. It really is an amazing story, and so well told!

[Ginger]

what a great birth story, i could totally relate to so much of it- especially in the birth of my first ds. i just wanted someone to help me. very powerful stuff you've written there S

[grub17]

congratulations on ivy's arrival!!! i wish i could take away some of your disappointment and guilt that you "didn't get what you wanted". I think you did a great job and are being way too hard on yourself - i hope you find some peace with this birth.

I loved reading all the details and really becoming immersed in your story. your hubby sounds so lovely. But i do wish i'd taken your advice and fetched food first lol.