Skybie thank you so much for sharing your story! i know our situations are different, but some of the things you say ring true with me also. like when they broke your waters, i had a very similar situation, where i broke down too, i think it was the reality of it all and what was about to happen. and the moment when your son was born when they put him on your chest, it is an amazing feeling, even though it was so sad....and the image of your DH....i too can remember being on the bed with DH in a chair beside me holding little J and just crying like i have never seen him cry before....it's such a heartbraking and horrible thing for us to go through, but thank you for sharing your birth, it sounds like it was as beautiful as it could have been, and im sorry your little boy had to leave you