Spring - DH and I both read your story. Both of us with tears. So much of it is ours. Those words. The pain. The birthing of a dead baby. Only my midwife was heaven sent. I felt the same need to have a vaginal birth. I didn't want my only birthing experience to be delivering a dead baby. Not to be this time but the safe arrival of our little man was the only desire in the end. To be honest - in retrospect the emergency c-section meant I didn't have to wait for that first cry.

you are brave beyond words and your boys would be so proud of the way you have shared their stories Thank you.