My boys.....warning - may be upsetting for some.

I'm in tears and struggling to find the right words. You and your DH are so brave and I thank you for sharing your story :hug:

Oh babe, you and your family are amazing people. Thank you for sharing such a personal and emotional journey with us. You deserve the best that life can bring from now on.

Spring,

Thank you for sharing your story. I had a friend interstate who birthed her son (also Harry) after he passed around the 38 week stage. I'm crying for all of you, but I am also amazed at the strength you have all shown.

That is heartbreaking and beautiful, all at the same time. You deserve every happiness after going through that. Big hugs to you Spring.

Wow thank you so much for your replies, you have touched my heart.

It was Kelly who encouraged me to write my story and although I procrastinated for a while, once I started typing I couldn't stop.

I just hope that one day that by reading my story, I can in some way help other women who have been through the harrowing loss of a baby.

Happy endings do happen.

Lv Spring

Spring, I am so very sorry that you have had to endure such pain. You have done both of your boys a great justice by telling their story. I feel so honoured also to be able to share this with you.

I sat here reading your story with my baby at my breast, so very thankful that I have that opportunity. I am so very glad that you too have gotten that same chance. :hug:

Spring,
I too read your story with tears. You write with such passion. Harry would be proud that you could give him the honour of his story.

Spring, you show a tremenous amount of strength in all things you do. You and your Dh (Mr. Spring ;) ) are both special people, thank you for sharing this amazing and personal journey with everyone, you do give hope that happy endings can happen.ThankyouSB xoxoxo

Spring, you are a wonderful strong mummy. I'm so proud to have shared your journey with you through your words. Congratulations on the birth of your sons.

Spring,
What a woman, what a mother , what an inspiration.
There was so much of Harrys birth I could relate too, yet havent had the courage to write it down.
I'm sure you have made the frightening thought of giving birth to a childless mother a possibility when so many are afraid of the outcome.
Bec

Spring that was beautifully written and must have taken a tremendous about of courage to write, though you an exceptional woman and you have an amazing DH... You are inspiration to us all babe xxx Well done and congratulations my friend

Spring, thanks so much for sharing your story. Most of us can only imagine what a hard time that would have been for you. I read your story with tears in my eyes, and my heart breaking for your loss. It was lovely though to hear how you went on to have a second beautiful son. I am truly grateful for my 3 beautiful children, and your story was an inspiration, you are a strong woman, and I wish you and your family all the happiness life brings. xx

Hi Spring
Let me first say you and your DH are so remarkable and your strength is something all of us look upon so fondly. Different little parts of your story were so similar to me and my DP's life....we have a Harrison, but fortunatly we haven't had to endure the pain and suffering like yourself and your DH. I can't comprehend why a midwife would be like that during your labour and delivery for Harrison, i think she must be in the wrong trade along with the OB as well. I really felt for what you and your DP had to endure especially when these medical people were meant to be there for you and your DP in a time of need and not to abandon yourselves.

I cannot find the right words to decribe how your story has made me feel, as the tears roll down my cheeks the impact you have had on me speaks a thousand words.

What amazing strength you and your DH have and I am certain that Harry is watching over all of you, thankyou so much for sharing your awe inspiring journey.:heartbeat:

I have no words to express how beautiful the story of Harry and Oliver is. To say that you are an amazing women is a huge understatement. Spring you are truely inspirational.
Thank you so much for allowing us to read and be apart of your beautiful birth of your boys. Oliver is always going to have the most special guardian angel watching over him every day of his life.

Thankyou for sharing your story Spring, I am sure Harry is watching over you all!

Spring - big :hug: to you. I read you story with tears running down my cheeks, tears for you and your boys, tears because I can feel the pain in your words, and I know that pain all too well. I admire how brave you are in putting your journey into words and sharing it with everyone. I believe knowledge is power and you have done a fantastic job of opening up awareness to stillbirth, something that many cannot understand. You have done your DH, Harry and Ollie so proud - just as your DH, Harry and Ollie have done you proud. I am so happy you achieved the positive birth experience you wanted with Ollie, you went in search of it and worked hard to achieve it - and now you have a extremely cute little boy in your arms and you will watch him grow, with Harry watching over from above. I hope writing your story has been healing in a way - you wrote so eloquently and you are an inspiration to all who know you :)

I am bawling, that was most beautiful and honorable. Thankyou for sharing that with us, I feel very honoured to have read that.

Oh my, how beautiful.

reading your replies is just so comforting. It was a very difficult to write about my boys, but now I know it was the right thing to do.

:grouphug:

Spring xx

Spring you are just amazing. Losing my baby at 12 weeks devastated me, so I cannot begin to imagine the courage and strength it has taken for you and your husband to make this journey.

I am, as always, in awe of you, Deb, Michelle and any other mother who has made this journey. :hug:

Thank you so much for sharing this with us, I can only imagine how difficult it was to write it......I wish you and your family all the blessings?.

Spring what an honor it was to read the birth stories of Harrison and Oliver. Thank you for writing down their journeys and sharing it with us all :hug:

oh, Spring. thank you so much for sharing your two birth stories. i am crying like crazy, but that is okay. i didn't even cry too hard until the happy birth part where Oliver was alive. i can't even tell you how much it means to me to read your words and know that we aren't alone in our fears. and that birth can be positive. thank you. big hugs for you, your dh, Harry and Oliver. xxoom

Dear Spring,

Thank you so much for sharing your story of Harrison and Oliver. I am honored to have read it. Your love for your boys and your husband shines so brightly and warms all of us.

Wow...

I am speechless and crying my eyes out, for your strength and your courage and your determination. You wrote that so beautifully. :hug:

Spring
I am speechless, I do not have stong enough words to share with you at how amazing you and your DH are to have come through what you have been through. It took me quite awhile to read your story for the tears I was shedding for you all. You have the most amazing inner strength that we all have but shouldn't have to use, particularly in these sorts of circumstances.
Wow, what an honour to know someone like you.

Spring, you are such an amazing and strong woman. What a beautiful story, you have had me in tears.

I can hardly see through my tears to type this what an inspirational story, you are a truely amazing, strong individual

A truely amazing story - thanks for sharing - you are an amazing woman

Thank you for sharing your story. What an emotional, heartfelt story to share. I am honored to have read it. You and your husband are obviously amazing people. Thank you.

It might sound strange but I feel so emotionally honored to be let into your private story of your beautiful Harry !!!

For Harry, I will kiss my toddler daughter when she awakes in the morning ... And that kiss will be in honor of such a precious baby named Harry :bluedust:

Your story will forever be with myself and many other, ... For that we thank you for having the absolute courage in sharing your story !!

Spring words can not convey the emotions I feel for you. :(Thank you for sharing your pain and joy, I feel so blessed that my little man survived as we almost lost him, he was revived once he was out. I have also just had a m/c and struggling with grieving. I so admire your strength and courage and I too can't wait to experience giving birth and hearing that first cry. May your world be blessed each and every sunrise the healing warmth of the universe..:angel2::angel2:
Angelwildfire x

Spring - thanks for sharing your story with us - you write like we were there....just a sad story to tell but with a happy ending....XX

Hey Girls, I have quick question, and I truly hope this does not in anyway seem incensitive cause that honestly isn't my intention, im just unsure of how to word it :S .... Unless I accidently read over it through the tears, but why was your baby boy not breathing? Why did that horrible thing happen. I'm currently 26 weeks pregnant and I guess I just want to know as much as possible before the big day. My partner however is upset with me for reading this story as he is worried now that it's going to make me panic, but still i'm just curious. Again I apologise if this is a horrible thing to ask.

Kirsty_Lee: Don't appologise, Stillbirth is such a taboo subject so I'm glad that you are brave enough to ask and learn more. You have no reason to panic, Your partner should not be upset at you, wanting to know more is perfectly normal.

So to answer your question.

There are many reasons why a child is stillborn such as genetic problems, problems with the placenta, cord accidents etc and a lot of a time there is no reason. In my circumstances my son had some problems that were diagnosed at my 19 week scan to do with his spine, but we can't be 100% sure that is why he passed. So I guess you could say we will never really know why.

That said, I don't want to take the innocence of pregnancy away from you. It is totally natural to be frightened and scared by reading my birth story, that is not what I intended though. Perhaps you could rather focus on the wonderful birth of my second son Oliver and the fact that he was born perfectly healthy.

So please please don't feel frightened, there are millions of babies born every year who are happy and healthy (Oliver being one of them).

Thank you for asking, now take a deep breath, relax and enjoy your pregnancy.

Oh and if you have any other questions I'd be happy to answer them.

Hope this helps
Spring

i got three paragraphs in and was crying to much to read anymore it hits to close to home to soon but thank you for sharing your story i know how hard it is im so sorry for your loss some people beleive in spirit babies they say the baby you lost will return to you on your next pregnancy so even though harrisons body died his soul lives on for you waiting to return to you

Thank you for sharing your story. You and your family are amazing

Spring,

Such a beautiful and terrible, a tragic and amazing birth story.
I'm a bit lost for words, but your story is one I won't forget for a long time

Thank you so much for sharing your story. My heart breaks for the loss of your precious Harrison, and at the same time I'm so glad you have sweet little Oliver safely in your arms now.

Absolutely Beautiful Story...Your a brave woman Enjoy your baby!