My boys.....warning - may be upsetting for some.

Thank you for such a beautiful story.
I was unsure whether to read it as I am awaiting the arrival of my now overdue first bub but I am so glad that I did. I recieved news that an old friend of mine had a stillborn baby during the year and I had been secretly terrified since. However, after reading your story I feel much reassured. Although you and your DH endured unimaginable pain with the death of your son Harrison, you gave me hope that things can not be terrible forever. You will always have that pain and memory but by your strength you also have the amazing love and future with your son Oliver, with the most perfect healing birth too. Your story has let me acknowlege that yes awful, terrible things can sometimes happen but also good things too. I am no longer scared because, although I know the chance to be tiny, if I was to suffer as you have I know that I would be able to go on, just as you have. There is always hope. I found your story to be horribly sad but full of hope and love and joy ...... just getting more tissues out now.
Thank you

Spring, I have tears rolling down my cheeks.

Thankyou for sharing your story. It is quite a way to honour all of your boys.

Spring, thank you so much for sharing your story. You gave both of your boys the beautiful births they deserved, as you did too.

Spring that was a wonderful tribute to Harrison. I have a little Oliver too - I burst into tears as I read your conclusion. They are the sweetest honey.

I join those with tears running down their cheeks. What an amazing gift of writing you have, and a story with a beautiful conclusion to share. I'm so happy for you and your husband that Oliver is with you here and able to comfort you.

Spring Angel, your story made me hold my breath to the very end. Yes some tears spilled down my cheeks and I felt my gut twisting in sympathy for you and Harrison. It sounds as though he is much loved!

Your honesty and passion are incredible and I wish you and your family the best in the future. Oliver is beautiful, congratulations!

Spring,

You are truly an inspiration, an amazing, strong woman. You have written such beautiful birth stories for both your boys, i wish all the happiness in the world for you, your equally strong DH and your gorgeous baby boy, Oliver.

What an incredible story- thank you so much for sharing. I've never cried so much reading two such emotional birth stories. You have an amazing character and an obviously wonderful husband. Hugs to Oliver and my thoughts and love to little Harry and his twin.

wow. You're so brave. I have tears in my eyes. Congratulations on your baby boy... What did you name him?

Spring, thank you for sharing such a private part of your lives me us all.. i feel honored to have read it.

xox Anna

How one goes on after such a heartwrenching experience!

Thank-you for sharing... I am choling back tears... No words can express how saddened I am for your loss of Harry...

sorry, I just dont know the words to type..

you have no idea how much respect i have for you after reading this ...

the tears are just streaming down my face , no doubt no where near as much as you have cried for you babies ..

How can I type with these tears in my eyes? That is a beautiful story. I felt like I was with you throughout the birth of your boys. It did bring back memories of one of my own angel babies - i remember being put under general anaesthetic to have my baby delivered (as the nurse was telling me how they had triplets born there this morning - tackful - not), and then when I woke up again I cried and the nurse said "why are you crying?" and I said "because I woke up again".

Many blessings to you and all your babies. lots of love and hugs.

That is both the most beautiful and the most hearbreaking post I have ever read.

I am sorry for your loss but I am joyous about your little boy. Congratulations on the birth of your little boy

Spring,
I am so sorry for your lose!
I too lost a baby but in very different circumstances. I totally know what you went through and I am still not over that experience and probably never will be. My obstetrician was an awful person too and sounds very much like yours.

I have a beautiful 2 yo now. She had complications when she was born but I knew her sister was up in Heaven helping her out.

Your boys would be so very proud of you!

Love to you xxx

I don't know how you can still breath after going through what you have. I've never had to go through anything like you have, you are a truely amazing women. Like everyone else who has read this I'm in tears and it has made me think just how very blessed I am. I'm just so sorry that things like this happen both the health care side and for your precious son.

I too was completely moved by your experience. What a wonderful tribute for your son's, the love you so obviously feel for them and the pain and suffering you were dealt with at the hands of a sterile medical professional. I know you will never forget, but you will see your baby's smile in the clouds and sunshine, and hear their laughter in the wind, knowing they are with you for the rest of your life. Thankyou so much for sharing this with us,

I have tears streaming down my face, thank you for sharing your story.

Spring :: Tears are still welling up in my eyes. You will be an inspiration to alot of women who read your story and have /are going through the same thing. I just dont know what to say "sorry for your loss" just dosent cut it. :hug:

Wow... What an honour it is to be invited into Harry & Oliver's story.
Like everyone I sit here wet with tears. I feel compassion at the ignorance of those who cared for you as you birthed Harry. How shut off they are from the reality of birth and death.
Your husband - how strong and brave. An amazing Daddy...
You my love I am in awe of. The true mother. I wish I could have been there as you birthed your first son - I am so so sorry Harry's day was treated so carelessly by others.

I shared your journey of birthing Oliver - and I know what an absolute mountain of strength you are. Thankyou thankyou thankyou for writing your story and for sharing the journey with us. We should all feel honoured... :hug:

i can honestly say i dont think i have cried so much over reading a story of someone i do not know.

Thank you so much for sharing your story of both Harry & Oliver, you and your DH are truely amazing & you bet Harry was watching over you as you birthed your second son into this world.

i am quiet appauled you were treated so terribly when birthing Harry But so glad for you that you had great treateent and support for the birth of Oliver.

CONGRATULATIONS!!

All I can say is WOW and now I have to get a tissue.

Well Done Spring!

I have just re-read these replies, I really needed it today so thank you to each of you for taking the time to read my story.

Lv Spring

Thank you so much for sharing. I, like everyone else, had a hard time reading your story through my tears. Congrats on being so strong and wishing you all the best for everything that comes along in the future :)

Ur storey proves how strong women truely are, thank u for sharing.
And if ever for some reason i doubt my strength ill think of u and remember harry's storey.

God bless u, ur husband and that beautiful little Oliver and remembering always beautiful little Harry. :) Who is no doubt watching over and protecting his little brother Oliver :hug:

Spring.. that is truly one of the MOST beautiful and heart wrenching all at the same time stories I've ever read in my life. I felt everything with you and I'm so happy that you had such a positive and wonderful birth with Oliver. I think that there's been a lot of tears from everyone reading this. You're truly an inspiration. I have a friend who went through this last August and is also truly amazing. :hug: to you all.

Reading your story bought tears to my eyes, i just wanted to hug you. You are such a strong woman being able to tell your story and i'm very thankful for the experiene you have shared with us all. Congratulations on giving birth to both your baby boys you have so much courage, well done and i wish you all the best.

omg, im sobbing like a baby right now. What a great story, im so proud of you. I was so happy to read the end bit :) i cried even more, but happy tears. Oh hun, well done!! xoxox

I read your story with tears in my eyes. Congratulations on your two sons, and for being so strong, and for having the birth you wanted.

Oh Spring, i absolutely bawled while reading this.
Thank you so mcuh for sharing your story.
You told such a tragic story so beautifully.
:hug:

Thank you.

As bad as this might sound, reading your story makes mine feel insignificant. You definitely are a very courageous woman and I am so glad to have had the opportunity to have read your story.
For me it was very touching, to know what I might had to endure as opposed to the absolute emergency c-section that I had.
I know from being close to the possibility of not having my daughter that your son will be everything for you as Greer is for me.

This was truly a mind blowingly emotional part of your life that you have offered to share with us. I thank you for being strong enought to be able to put all this into words. I just want you to know i think you are one very strong and couragous woman.
Well Done :hug: :hug: :hug:

That is a truly wonderful story..Thank you so much for sharing. I am crying ATM you write so well. Thank you so much..

what a beautiful story

I am 20 weeks pregnant today and having a little boy, we lost his twin at 6 weeks and even though he was only here for a short time i still think about him.

Oh Kristy, I read this story before... I think it's in the Articles section and it was anonymous so I've been wondering who the writer was and how I could contact her... and all this time it's you! I read and re-read your story and share all your pain and sadness at the birth of Harry. You've been helping me so much with coping with the loss of my little Hamish. I hope one day soon I'll be able to share your joy and wonder at the birth of a live baby. And I hope that I'll be able to be as brave as you.

Spring,

You have certainly honoured your babies in these stories. I truly admire your bravery and take some encouragement from this.

You were lucky to have such great support for Oliver's birth but ultimately you were the one who worked through the doubt and let your body work naturally through the labour. I daresay, it takes a lot of courage to do this following the traumatic experience you had at Harry's birth.

When I lost Alex, I've discovered so many dimensions to my grief - not only the loss of my baby, but also the loss of innocence, confidence and the loss of the joy of the birth that should have been. Reading your story, I have some hope that in future perhaps we may, one day, regain at least a couple of these losses.

Please know that by sharing your stories and support you have given this sad and sorry soul a glimmer of hope.

Danek

I really have no words. You are amazing parents and inspiring to so many. Enjoy your beautiful little boy oliver, he has a very special angel looking over him for life!

All my love and hugs Spring. I think you have amazing strength. My mum lost my beautiful brother at 9 hours old, i know she never recovered. She passed away a year ago and i know they are together now which makes me smile. It's a womans worst fear to lose her baby, i am balling my eyes out and thank you for sharing your story. You are amazing.

You're right Steffi - our Spring is amazing.
YOur story has touched so many Spring. :hug: