Wow - what a tough birth you have experienced. You've done so well getting it all down and expressing yourself as it's so important for you to work through the experience you've had. Having had 2 emergency c-sections, I understand how tough it is. You shouldn't be induced again next time now that you've had 1 c-section so that's something to hold onto!

Congratulations on the arrival of your little boy and take care of yourself as you recover.