Thanks for an amazing...wonderfully told birth story. Freya is just gorgeous and I am glad you are recovering well..I think it is important to hear birth stories that are more involved.. you don't hear much about them.. I think part of the reason is that a lot of people don't want to talk about the things that can go wrong. I can think of threads on here that raise the topic about why people always want to tell you about the horrible birth experience they had??? It is difficult and unless someone begins a conversation about that type of thing I tend to not talk about my own birth experinces and often wonder how in depth I can go with that person, which is pretty sad because I think its one of those things that can take a long while to debrief and talking about it is something that helps me a lot. Having said that I realize that everyone is different and have their own way of dealing with things. Its funny but I have always thought I would post my own birth stories, but when it came to the time felt they were'nt worthy enough or perhaps a bit to gory and it would'nt serve me well to leave those bits out as I would'nt have been able to acheive the release I was looking for, so instead decided to keep them to myslef, which always has made me feel a bit sad.
Anyway enough of my rant.. I am glad you have told your story Dusty.
lol about the poo, I can remember being horrified that I pooed in the shower, just rabbit poo but then did'nt know what to do about it, so in my labour induced haze decided to push it down the drain with my toe..never thinking about the poop on my toe or perhaps even under my toenail??? (redface)
My goodness sweets - you really went through the wringer. The wet paper bag analogy had me wincing. You know, you've done so amazingly well to remain so positive and to be able to process this so rationally so soon after Freya's birth - it took me quite a while to be able to recognise how traumatised I was by Euan's birth and the recovery, and longer again to process it. And my experience or recovery was not a patch on yours.
It's so true though that we should be able to acknowledge the trauma we experienced whilst still celebrating the joy we feel at the birth of our child. And that an empowered birth can still be a traumatic one. And that part of it can be perfect whilst another part of it intensely unpleasant. And that difficulty in conceiving or carrying our babies does not negate the validity of the difficulty we experience during their births - admitting how distressing the birth was does not make a child any less loved, or wanted. And that the various and often conflicting emotions we feel about our births are not neatly compartmentalised, but all intermingled. And that for some people the only way to heal from the experience is to talk about it (or write about it). Even, and especially, the gory, mucky and gross bits.
You did such a wonderful and inspiring thing in bringing your beautiful Freya into this world, from start to finish. And we all know that you'll continue to inspire as she grows.
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