Beautiful story!

One thing that stood out though was the emotional feeling as the sun sets. I got this too and I would be fine all day and then as night closed in I would bawl my eyes out. Do you find the nights lonely? I found a few things to help. One was rescue remedy as soon as I felt that feeling, I also started lighting a candle each evening to remind myself how strong and capable I am. That initial shock of responsibility os huuuuuge! I used to imagine everything being a danger to my dd, even myself because my senses were so heightened to protect her.

Please pm me if you want to chat. I wrote a diary during those early weeks and it shares a lot of this.

You're amazing, and your birth was incredible...try and find that magic in each day...it's in your baby and within you...