Pollyannas birth story-DARCY

[pollyanna]

Well its true. As you read this,you are probably thinking WHAT THE?

I had a very complicated pregnancy-it was hard going. I was in incredible pain due to pelvic instability and every day was a worry as with liver complications you have a high risk of still birth. I was very worried that i may not even get to a point where i would have my little precious in my arms.I got up sunday morning and felt lousy, achey crabby and just off. My mum was over doing my ironing bless her, and i said mum i feel pretty crap-I'm going back to bed for a bit(this was lunch time)-and i said i have a funny feeling "today could be baby day".God knows why i would say something so stupid(out there)as i havent ever had labor start naturally so i'd have no idea what to expect. My son and i were having a cuddle and he was telling me about school stuff.Then i got what i thought was this almighty kick. I kind of lunged as it gave me a jump.I thought wow-he's never kicked that hard before. My son and i kept chatting and about half an hour later i decided to go for a piddle.I stood up and had a weird leaky sensation. thinking "OH GREAT-the joys of pregnancy now i'm incontinent too". I darted off to the ensuite and the flood gates opened. I had polyhydramnios so had 4 litres of liquor hit the floor. My 11 year old came in and saw me with a puzzled expression and all the water on the floor and me just standing there watching and making no attempt to clean it or stop it. He said"Mum are you ok?Cause i don't think thats normal? I said "Yes honey its not very normal-is it?" He said mummy is that your waters breaking?!!!" Oh my GOODNESS- Bridget the babies coming today"!!!!!I said "Whoa mate-it could be a false alarm"But thinking not really!!I said can you get mum a towel a pair of undies and two pads.While he was doing that i was thinking;i wonder how much time i have got to wait to see if anything happens?About two minutes later i got my first contraction.I rang my mum and told her what had happened and she couldnt believe it.I called my exhusband to come get the kids and then called the ambulance. The ambulance was quick only about ten minutes.Kids got collected-they were so excited!!And mum followed the ambulance to the hospital. I had many contractions on the way but nothing worse than period pain, but with every contraction i oozed waters-it was gross,i was sitting in my own oasis. I went into an assesment suite and was hooked up to monitors and had my first internal done. Labour was well and truly established and there was no stopping it. I was terrified as i new Darcy was too early-but i also new this was the destiny he had chosen for himself. He is a very determined soul. The internal proved to be inconclusive as the doctor couldnt find my cervix so another doctor came in.He was awful;no bedside manner,very abrupt and i have never been hurt so much EVER. I was screaming and crying for him to stop and he kept going. I felt very violated and had totally lost my mojo. When he left the room i got off the bed and was assisted to the toilet and sat there and fell apart my sister and my doula were both cuddling me and couldnt believe the ill treatment i recieved. Together they helped me find my inner strength again and i was ready. The result of the internal though was that i was 5cm dialated. I couldnt for the life of me understand why everyone was flying around the room getting everything ready. Whats the rush?Yes i had my last baby in under two hours but that was 9 years ago. its bound to be a while yet.I then had a contraction that seemed endless and it was very hard to recapture my breath. My doula was telling me how wonderful these contractions were as they were really doing things.I was like"Hmmmm easy for you to say" Then i was like "Are you kidding me-another one"The whole room errupted into laughter. i didnt even get a breather! I remember sort of internalising and withdrawing into myself. Almost like i wasnt there at all. All i could hear was my breathing and groaning and my doula telling me "I could DO this and what a wonderful job i was doing and how close i was" She kissed me and i felt very safe. It was like i was a ship in fog and she was my lighthouse guiding me the way. All i could hear was her voice. It was all i needed. THE creep doctor came back in and said he wanted to put and electrode on the babies head as they were losing his pulse. I thought to myself if you touch me again i'm going to kick you hard square in the jaw-AND YOU WON"T BE GETTING UP! With that he moved the gown and said"Actually no i don't think we need that electrode as we are having a baby RIGHT NOW! HEnce why they couldnt find his heartbeat it was under my pelvis. I was then told dont push and i didnt. With every single fibre of my being i held on and baby pushed against me!The midwife said i assure you she is not pushing i can feel her tummy muscles contracting against the baby. That is all him-trying to get out.With the next breath i felt him slide out of me.I was terrified and crying , i kept asking if he was ok. I wanted my sister to cut the cord;and he just went right ahead and did it. I was angry but with that but it seemed insignificant when i was so worried about his breathing. He took a minute to breath,then coughed and had a little cry, his apgars were 7 and 8. I got to have a split second cuddle and he was whisked off to nicu.All in all i can understand the rush. I had him in 1 hour and 17 minutes. I looked up to see my sister with pools of tears in her eyes. It all happened so fast she didnt get to see the business end like she wanted. He was on cpap for about 34 hours and was unable to feed. He is going from strength to strength. Negligable jaundice. His club feet are very bad;but we dont care. We are totally smitten with him. He is adorable and i have to say "HE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE" I adore him. his fluffy cheek,his sweet baby smell the way he melts into me during a breast feed. He is the most wonderful soul and i'm so blessed that god has entrusted him to me,to borrow while he is here in this life. The other kids adore him as much as i do. He is at My local special care nursery now so much easier to visit and feed him,but i want him home. i want him in my bed. I want to take him and undress him and study every single precious part of his little body from head to toe. He is the most perfect thing i have ever seen.
Thanks for reading;if you had the stamina to stay with me.

Pauline