Hi lovely ladies, just looking for some support/advice. I have ebf my girls for 14 months now and it has been one of the most rewarding rollercoasters we have been on with them. However, I am done. I just can't deal with the tandem fighting/pinching/biting/hairpulling/acrobatics any more. I just want my body back and am hating the way I have started to feel when one starts digging around in my top for a boob then wailing hysterically until she gets it only for twin two to start bellowing because she thinks she is missing out. So I really feel just about ready to wean. I have spoken to our local Karitane nurse about this before and she said I will be lucky for them to self wean at this stage, they usually have between two and four feeds in 24 hours and are showing no signs of self weaning. I really hate the sense of abandonment that I get even thinking of initiating weaning, life would be so much easier if they would start it on their own

I feel like I'm in a bit of a dilemma. While I really want to wean, it feels like an enormous psychological hurdle for me to overcome. These will be my only babies. I will never breastfeed again and while I don't want to stifle their development by trying to keep them as babies forever, it feels like a huge step towards their independence (or not being so dependent on me) itms. Then comes my next issue. It may never seem like the perfect time, but there is just so much going on in their little lives and boob is such a comfort to them. E is getting her molars atm so is not a happy camper. G has had ongoing sleep issues which we now think is down to the fact that she has rotten ears and we are waiting for an ENT referral for grommets. She has been in our room since the beginning of the year and we are planning on moving her to her own room in the next week or so. Is it all going to be too much for them, with teething/room change/illness to think of weaning right now, if it means that they are not going to have one of their biggest comforts throughout it all.

I just feel so torn right now yet so exhausted and I don't know the best thing to do. TIA