sounds like you're having a tough time.

You have been given some awesome advice (manta Ray you're my hero) but I just wanted to sympathise and say i found 8 months the hardest. I too toyed with weaning, but in the end I gave myself a 'holiday' by staying at home, napping with dd and cosleeping at night. Within a week I felt so much better.

It will pass. I hope you are ok in the meantime.