Yeah, I have no idea how I feel about this!!! In some ways I'd love to have a few drinks!! But at the same time I am so worried that Charlotte will need me or something that I wouldn't be able to have a good time either. And tbh I think I would feel really guilty...
I think I just answered my own questions! I might have one but I think that's all I am going to be able to do. My life is different now and I have her to look after and be responsible for.

Does it annoy anyone else that we are the ones who change everything for these babies?? I love her so very much but in a way I get frustrated that I can't just do whatever anymore, I mean I could choose to drink but then it's complicated and I'd worry and not have a good time etc and it is bad for Charlotte in the end cause she won't have me there to comfort her and what if she just wants to suck?, whereas DH will quite happily get drunk without thinking about it because he doesn't have to be there for charlotte.. . That annoys me. As a mother you give up everything, as a father you dont have to give up barely anything.

Oh well, not like I'd choose to be in a different situation anyways. I'd happily choose being a mother over all that stuff any day! It's just hard sometimes.