I Think We're Done.

**~ Zarava Flutterby ~** · September 30th, 2011, 04:43 PM

**please no judging or comments about DP and his feelings towards my continuing BFing, this is just my chance to vent and appreciate how far we came, this has been my decision to make things easier & more harmonious for us all and i don't need to feel 'guilty' about our decision. **

DP had a bit of an issue with the fact that DD2 was still feeding, it was really starting to get to him and in turn was really starting to get me down.
I love our BFing relationship but it was starting to cause some negativity b/w DP and myself so i agreed with him that i would start to wean her off, i was kind of upset at the thought that she would want booby and i would be refusing her and had decided that when times got tough DP could deal with her, he had an issue and it was 'his' idea to stop.

BUT....

It hasn't been that difficult, DD basically only fed upon waking and sometimes at night before bed, if she was grumpy at the library she would angrily pull at my top and scream BOOBY at the top of her voice which was kind of getting rather embarrasing.
I was in two minds about stoping, while i loved our BFing relationship and what it meant for us both i also felt negative at times about the relationship (ie. library) and what it meant for us both.
She wouldn't stay with anyone else overnight, she made life difficult for DP if i went out before her bedtime, she would oftne whinge to people about wanting booby but the plus was she would fall asleep at the boob when sick, i got so so many gorgeous booby cuddles and cheeky booby grins.

She has not had booby for probably close to a week now, some mornings in bed she asks but we distract her with a water or by popping the TV on, part of me feels so so horrible saying no to her but the other part of me says "she's fine, she's happy, healthy & it's not a big deal".

So i guess thats us done, i am upset that this part of our relationship has come to an end but also a little relieved she can extend her relationship with DP and other family by not relying on me so much.... not quite 2yrs but i think 18mths+ is an amazing effort and i'm so happy i could provide that start for her.

thank you to everyone on BB for your support during our BFing journey, reading everyones stories and watching everyone evolve really helps.