Hey there,
Just looking for some reassurance/encouragement or something, I don't know. I am exhausted and emotional!
My gorgeous 3 month old baby boy has fallen a couple of percentile lines re weight. He was born 50th. Then he went to 25th. Now he is 5th. His head and height are higher up, like 25th or so. He always puts on weight, but the gains are getting lower per day. The height gain is kind of way more exponential.
Anyway. I am a worrier. In fact, I've been having PND/anxiety and I also have pain issues, so for me to breastfeed is kind of a big deal. I can pretty much only manage it lying down most days.
So my bubs is breastfed with one bottle of formula per day. And he regurgitates a lot. And he is tiny! But he does seem to keep the formula down a bit better. I don't know. I am so confused. We are trying all the usuals: holding him up post-feed, tried a bit of upright nursing (not happy with that) and also thickener in a gel before the breastfeeds plus losec drops. We are seeing a paediatrician who has now ordered a barium swallow because he had a tiny bit of green (dark brownish) in one of his spews once.
I thought I was being neurotic and inflexible. Another doctor recommended I see a paed for reassurance. Now it seems like things are even worse than I thought. The doctor literally said he should be chubbier and there "reason to worry". But he is still growing head and height wise. I thought that was normal??
I just wonder if I'm clinging to the breastfeeding and not seeing clearly what is best for my child. Now, listen. I know that people can be very pro-BF on this site. As am I. I just feel like my judgement is poor and I need some honest experiences.
Would it be possible things might improve once solids start?
Is it just better for this bub to have a bottle so that he can keep more calories down? I would be so sad to wean him to bottles, but I want to embrace that choice if it is better for his health.
I am just not that confident a mum or a breastfeeder because of my physical (and mental) limits which are very real.
So any kind words of wisdom appreciated.
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