i had issues with bf since day one ...
every few hours or so a midwife would hold my boob in one hand a bub in the other and i just sat there i had no idea what was happening at all .. ds didnt latch on in hosp and i went home and hired a pump... each feed i tried to get him to latch on but it was tricky... after 2 months of pumping he finally latched on ... i was relieved .... when he was 5 months my supply dropped and i tried everytihg to get it back.. nothing worked... i feel like i havent tried hard enough even tho theres nothing left for me to try.... people and nurses shame you when you whip out a bottle and everytime in public... i mourn for my milk and die of shame when ppl look at me ... i even went back to the lc who helped me in the beginning and she said if i was happy to give some feeds and formula at other it was ok... she didnt help me when i said i wanted each feed to be a bf... it was a sad day that day, she was a professional and didnt even help.. pfft!!