oh thanks so much for all your replies!!!
so ABA membership, lactation consultant, skin to skin as much as possible.
in the early days, I was put in hospital on drip for antibiotics and they pumped the hell out of my boobs. but the pump just destroyed my nipples. Should i steer clear of electric pumps??
and I am optimistic, that all I need to do is have a bub that is born and feeds straight away, and it could be a totally different experience. but im just trying to prepare for the 'what ifs'
thank you all so much! I know its not the end of the world if I don't succeed, but I reeeeeeaaallly want to!