I've not had a good success rate with breastfeeding my kids.

And I'm scared that I will fail again, because I know how easy it is to bottle feed them. No worries about pain, if they are getting enough etc. I'm scared that I will be weak and go straight for what I know, instead of being stubborn and not giving up. Which seems crazy, I never gave up on my want for a vbac and I eventually got that.

Anyhow I'm not sure why I'm posting. For support maybe? For ideas to make it easier?

All my kids had attachment issues, in particular DD2 and that was the reason I switched to fully formula fed by 1 month. She never latched properly (even with shields) therefore never drained my breast and my milk disappeared. When she was first born, she fed for 2 hours non-stop and my nipples cracked straight away.

I've got nipple shields in my bag to use straight up - just incase this one wants the same amount of feeds.

I hate the fact that something that is supposed to be natural seems to be so hard for me and my kids to co-ordinate and get right.

Anyway any help/support/suggestions would be great cos I probably won't go into labour with this stuff on my mind!!