I feel really silly for being so stubborn when it came to BF. As said by my oldest friend yesterday "while formula is good in theory i dont think i could be bothered making up bottles when i could just lift up my shirt! plus its free!"
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Is it hard to establish BF now? I'm not sure if i want to or might just wait until next time. I am happy with my decision but i feel stupid that i didnt atleast try..
Don't feel stupid. You made a decision armed with the info you had at the time; everybody learns and grows (my mum reckons that's what a first born is for, to test out what works and doesn't lol). If you want to bf next time, or even express, you have a lot more info and support at your disposal, iykwim?