Thanks everyone for your words of support. I really had a bit of a freak out today in regards to it all - birth, feeding and life with a toddler and a newborn. I know I can do it and I will give it my all and I know that if at the end of the day I have tried all I could then thats all I can do. And that goes for my VBAC as well.

Like so many of you I was induced (for 4 days) had my waters broken, had Synto, posterior bub with her head stuck, failure to progress and ended with a emerg c-sect. Bella was also jandice and sleepy and wasnt really interested in sucking for a few days - so the MW and the LC's would grab my boobs and prob and pry - then I was hooked up to a elect pump evey 2 hrs for days and still not a drop - I have to say when it came feed time I was SO stressed! And after 3 days bella had not had a feed so we went with formula as I felt like I was starving her!

I have never really put all these factors together before and I now reliese that stress and fear probably caused me not to get my milk in... I had appointments with the LC's after I got home and the thought of going through all that again bought me to tears to I didn't go... I FF instead. OMG - I really think thats why no milk... thats a huge lightbulb moment for me just now....