I'm not going to share my BF experience with DD1 with you, because it's not what you want to hear right now. I only wanted to post to let you know that your reaction at the moment is totally normal, I feel exactly the same way. I am not even pregnant and I am already fearing going back to hospital with BF related issues. This time will be different... different baby, different delivery, different support people. You are probably going to be very proud of yourself in 6 months time when you look back at how well you did BF second time around .