Thanks everyone for reading, listening and comforting me.
My baby is very good, he does latch well, he does drink from my breasts, but he stops once the flow goes slow and it is only normal for him to do that. Like I mentioned, it isnt his fault. I have tried the SNS since coming back from the hospital, but the stimulation sucks are quite different. With drawing milk out of my breasts, my baby uses very strong sucks, but with the SNS, even with the finest tubing and lowering the bottle, it is rather easy for him to draw out milk even without strong sucks. Also, he doesnt work hard even with the SNS, he is quite a sleepy bub. With the bottle, he isnt all that diligent too and never finishes his bottle of milk. So it is a losing battle that I am fighting.
Many of you echoed my feelings and thoughts and your posts helped me to feel better, that there are mums out here who understand. I have a few regrets, I wish I could turn back the clock and have brought him out of the nursery and put him to my breasts when my milk came in, rather than depending on the pump, and syringing the little milk i had to feed him. I wish I had brought the SNS to hospital when he was born and used that instead of using the bottle. But that's all too late now to cry over split milk. I am not having anymore babies, so I guess there is no more chance to breastfeed.
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