Hi,

I'm sorry you are feeling so unwell.
Sometimes mothering is just sheer, unrelenting hard work. And made more difficult when you are sick. But this is essentially true regardless of how you feed your child. When you are breastfeeding some-times you do end up feeling like it;s all up to you. But somehow babies have radar for their mum - especially when she is feeling least able to cope
To top in all off, the bottle is so often held up by friends and family as a golden beacon. Putting your baby on the bottle will solve everything. I'm here to tell you it's not so!
But, go easy on yourself. Accept offers of help, and enlist help from your partner and friend. You can take a little time for yourself, even with a breastfed baby.
And you can always vent to your friends - we understand it's sometimes hard going. Sometimes we all fake it....til we mean it again