So it's now coming up to my first BF goal - which was to make 3 months. And instead of being all excited and proud like I was a few days ago now I'm just a bit over it all. I'm fairly sure my periods returned just after my post-birth bleeding stopped. And then three weeks later another few days of period like bleeding for a few days - and an absolute horror few days of BF with super super sore nipples/areola and a fussy baby. Took almost a week for me to get back on good terms with BF.

Fast forward another three weeks and I've got all the signs of another period coming on - complete with the horror BF again. So I go to my chest freezer - where I've been expressing every time I can when the BF has been in it's good weeks - and I find that the stupid handyman who was around here a few days ago has turned it off at the power point and not turned it back on. All of my expressed milk is off. I had been hoping to use it incase I had super sore nipples at any stage (like NOW) and also when I start TAFE two nights a week (on MONDAY!)

I just feel completely deflated that all that effort has gone to waste. BF has not been easy at all for me, I don't feel it "fair" I've got AF when I am exclusively BF including lots of night feeds and that it affects my boobs so much, I also had a traumatic birth and a painful pregnancy with pelvic issues, and I'm just trying really hard not to consider this the "last straw". Not that I really think I would quit BF, but the thought has crossed my mind.