the whole thing is stressing me out so much that i am going to give up and put him on formula, i feel like i have persevered for 4 weeks and i am out of patience... just then he was crying and crying hungry, i try to breast feed him and he doesn't want to attach and just cries and cries, so i went and got him a bottle and he drank 120mls.... he is now content... even though the breast milk is better for him, the stress of trying to get him to take a feed, and me yelling at my 3 year old at the same time as the whole act is taking its toll on me, i just feel like its probably not actually in our best interests to continue... we are off on holiday tomorrow and i so wanted to have the ease of breast feeding while on the plane, while we are out on day trips etc, but i have been fooling myself as i know he won't feed and i plan on taking bottles etc anyway so what is the point.

thanks for your support, i just have so much on my plate at the moment with my own health issues and long car trips down to melbourne to see specialists etc, and i am also starting a casual job next week and i don't see anyway i could possibly pump every 2 hours, without going nuts and my 3 year old also suffering. also for the last 4 weeks he has only been feeding for a few minutes, a few times throughout the day, so maybe my supply has diminished anyway...

i wish it could have worked out, as in the beginning it was going so well, but when he got thrush in his mouth everything went terrible and it hasn't improved. his mouth still looks sore, but i can't have him going hungry just because i really wanted to breast feed.... i just think he needs to be fed in the way that causes the least amount of stress for everyone involved.