It sounds like you getting somewhere with your little one that is working for you both... for the most part. The crankiness could be a few things, bf won't fill up as much or last as long (from what i've been told) but i think it's just allowing the time for your bub to work with your body to get the right balance. I really wanted to bf my bub but knew to try stay relaxed about it as it's not possible for everyone. My first aim was to make it to 3 months and that did seem really hard sometimes. I had times (i have no idea what age DS was) but he'd begin a feed and be going along ok and then just start fighting me, crying, not attaching all this weird stuff that just confused the hell out of me becuase we were going along great. I persisted thankfully and he got out of that horrible stage. Making it to 3 months was a HUGE milestone for myself and DS, i got there and thought, wow maybe i can make it to 6 months and we made it to that and i would say from then on it was easier but before that it was something i had to work extremely hard at. I bf DS for 13 months.

Keep trying Irishconn, i'm sure you'll be able to get through this difficult time and be able to relax and enjoy feeding your beautiful boy. You do what you feel is best for yourself and your son and he will always adore you for it.

I wish you the best of luck also with the path you are traveling with your DH

The sleep is a whole other issue too, it's hard work also and i think you need to remember that you need to show your DS when it's time to sleep and how best to fall asleep, this all has to be learnt. You could do this buy looking for his tired signs, maintaining a routine and sometimes it may mean sitting by the cot patting him off to sleep but insisting it's bed time. From an early age i think i had DS in bed around 6 or 7pm and then he'd be up again about 9ish for another feed. I think it's realistic to have some sort of routine in place by 8 weeks, before that it's just establishing different things that you might like to eventually incorportate into a routine. Good luck it's hard work but the bubs defiantely benifit from our hard work and sleepless nights and then once it's up and running we get our sleep back.

You're dealing with a lot so take what advice you imagine may work for you but you know what is best for your family so trust yourself