I was thinking of joining the Ava but don't know what it's like and am a little shy
I'm was exactly the same. Like ~TT40~ said its basically a mag and discounts, if that what you want it to be. Thats all I ever used it as. You can make it as much as you want ie local meetups, babys day out, train to be a counsellor yourself etc In hindsight, I wished i had called the hotline so many times. I was too stubborn, felt like I was the only person who couldnt work it out and didnt want to get on the phone in tears; but had I called it sure would have made my journey a lot less lonely and difficult!

I haven't called them cause I kinda feel silly or seething like its not that bigger thing to other ppl cause everyone else seems to be able to Bf
Never ever feel silly. If asking a question helps you achieve your dream to BF your 2nd child, ask away. No question is too small or too trivial, that's what these people are trainjed to assist you with I can't give stats, maybe someone else can but people might seem to be able to BF but I can assure you the percentage is lower than it seems at times. I think around 95% of BF woman have troubles at one stage or another.