It's never failure honey. You can do it. When bubs is here if you ever need a breastfeeding cheering squad my inbox is always open to you. I've helped many women successfully breastfeed when they were sure they wouldn't be able to. Even through pain, cracked nipples... the works. Sometimes you just need someone to hold your hand, be it cyberly to know that someone understands. And I promise you when you get over that hump you will never look back. Have you looked into joining an ABA group in your area? Don't think you need to do this only when you have bubs. It's good to join now