oh no
Those first weeks with a toddler and a newborn are definately the toughest.
I found that my DD LIVED on playdough, haha! It was one thing that she never seemed to get sick of, so as soon as DS would start his cluster feeds, I'd pull out the playdough and let her go nuts! She really enjoyed it. Messy as hell, but it gave her soemthing fun to do while boring ol' mum sat on the couch and watched.
I also try and keep books out, so if she wants, she can bring me a book, sit next to me, and we read a book together.

Don't feel bad for wanting to give up, i'm sure we all have our moments
Sending you big warm fuzzy hugs. You're doing an incredible job. You are an incredible mother.

xx