I just need to vent really. If anyone has any bright ideas they would be welcome, but I feel like we have everything covered! You never know though.

I thought it would be different this time. I was prepared for some basic issues, but I can't believe that I am unlucky enough to have maternal AND child related issues with breastfeeding, with BOTH of my babies . One or the other I could cope with, but both is just giving me a headache and making me miserable. I guess I'm lucky that this time I am better prepared, know what to do and where to go for help. But I still feel very lost, and very lonely. We are EXTREMELY lucky that DS2 has been fed exclusively with BM, something that is very tricky with a prem. I am ever grateful to our BM donors, it has taken a huge amount of stress out of this experience.

I need to come to terms with this, and be able to move on to BF DS2 in whatever way is possible for us. I know it can be done, but the unknown is really stressing me out. Why oh why can't I be one of those people who have the usual first six weeks of issues and then go on to BF exclusively? I want this so much, surely it's not too much to ask?????