I had those feelings very strongly when pregnant. I pushed through and I know you did too when you were pregnant with DS, but still, BF aversion is horrible So you're 100% not pregnant?

Honestly, if it's affecting you like this, I'd be slowing cutting the feeds down. I don't know how exactly, but I night weaned DD at 12 months because I couldn't handle the constant waking for milk (that wasn't even there by that stage). Maybe you could try cutting a feed every few days? Or only having feeds at certain times, or at certain intervals? I don't know. It's tough.