It's lucky Tom won't take formula or a bottle, because it wouldn't take much to make me give up breastfeeding right now.

I don't even know why - it's all going quite well. He is ten months old, and he's always nursed like a champ. I've had no supply or attachment issues. In fact, it's gone like a dream.

I've been sick all week with first a migraine and now a gastro bug, and I just want to be left alone. Tom wakes up at least twice a night for a feed (and I know he's hungry because he guzzles down a big drink and then goes straight back to sleep) and I'm just so tired. I can't make him take more solids, I've tried.

I'm trying to pull back on the nighttime feeding a bit - not letting him stay on as long as he'd like, for instance, trying to settle him without the boob if he wakes too soon, etc. I'm very run down, and finding it hard to cope with the lack of sleep. Tom won't co-sleep, and I don't sleep well with him in the bed anyway.

I love snuggling up with him in bed (he mostly has to feed lying down, for some reason), particularly when I have got home from work (I work two days a week, will be four days a week starting April) and when he's fallen asleep at the breast, it's just the best feeling in the world. But he scratches me while he's feeding, he can be a bit awkard... and I'm just a bit fed up, really. I know dh is too.

I guess I just need some encouragement to get over the hump. I breastfed my last two kiddos until they were two and I'd like to do the same with Tom.