I know. I am still iffy about the ex thing. Him & her have just had their baby, but I'm still not convinced that he's all there.

I would still be a reasonable distance from him. But not far enough for me to be comfortable. A days drive is too easy & exactly why I came this far.

I've considered living somewhere else here, but I'm not too interested. It's hard enough on your own when you know a few people, to be completely on my own is too scary for me. I'm not out going enough. Not yet at least.

This is an awesome community to be involved in. I really do love it outside the bull. But it's getting hard for me, as myself. Rumours she spread about me being with a married man etc... I think people have gotten to know me well enough now to not believe it, but it's like she'll stop at nothing to make my life harder.

On the outside, I'm great on the inside, I'm struggling with it. Wondering what the hell I've done in my life to deserve the never ending line of people who want to **** all over me...

I'm really hoping the next 12 months improve. But if not, I know I'll be happy with my mates back home that love me no matter what. It's just ex I am worried about.