Things are just so hard...
I am so tired, dragging dd around to look at places that seem good on (website name removed by moderator - please read guidelines) and turn out rubbish. I have started the whole throwing stuff out process when I have energy but I am just so tired.
I had the biggest cry tonight as I took down all the wall stickers and all the nursery stuff that I took so much time placing up for this bub. It just felt so depressing and overwhelming.
I know moving before bub will be easier but right now it all seems hard.
To make matters worse, last night I threw up in the bath and today I threw up in the car while at traffic lights. I grabbed some serviettes from centre console but it wasn't enough, so I cried all the way home with Dd telling me it's ok mummy. Not sure whether it's stress related or morning sickness back.
I have plenty of offers of help from family and friends which is great but it's limited what they can do at the moment.
My mum is coming over tomorrow with about $100 worth of boxes and packing stuff that she is shouting me and is going to come with me to look at places, then my sister is coming over in the Arvo and is going to stay the night and help pack some stuff. I am really lucky to have them.
I just feel so lost, unsettled and in limbo land. I hate it
Sorry for the vent. Just needed to get it out.
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