Unplanned emergency CS, due to baby in distress..x2.
I felt a FAILURE, UNWOMANLY that I could'nt birth my own baby, DISAPPOPINTED in my body. But in the end RELIEF to be holding my babies in my arms.

VBA2C ended in unplanned, but not entirely unexpected emergency CS due to mother distress..x1 I felt OUT OF CONTOL, a FAILURE that I could'nt do it after all my planning, my baby was fine it was me that was'nt, but RELEIVED, that I was holding my healthy baby girl in my arms.
I hope I understood what you asked for.. I have baby brain currently and sometimes don't read things correctly.