You've been given good advice here to get a hold of your hospital records. I have had 3 (unwanted) c-sections and got copies of my hospital records before DD3 was born. Bear in mind that your records will not be the complete story. In fact some things may be incorrect (i speak from experience and that of others on BB -there's a thread about it somewhere!). Your own and your DH recollection should fill in the gaps. I personally found some of it useful to have but my memory of conversations with midwives and the registrar on duty were different to some of the things written.

From my experience, whilst i was in hospital with DD3 i asked to see my records - which were right in front of me on the midwives desk - and was told i couldn't but would have to apply under FOI. VERY FRUSTRATING!!

I spoke with an independent midwife who took me through my records before DD3 and she actually highlighted things that hadn't occured to me so it was very useful to debrief with someone who wasn't there but could piece together the situation with my memory and the hospital records.

I have debriefed a few times with different people (midwife, friends, birth counsellor) and found it healing as the disappointment and grief you may feel, after an unexpected outcome such as a c-section, takes time to learn to accept and come to terms with. It's been very valuable to me as I desparately wanted a VBA2C and it didn't happen. I was given some good ideas for coming to terms with it from debriefing with others.

Take care & good luck