Hi Hummingbird, Congratulations on the birth of your little man!

I just want to say that what you are feeling is in no way abnormal, I went through my own kind of hell after having my DS by c/s. Honestly I felt like no one in my Real life understood how I felt and what I was going through, if not for BB I hate to think where I would be (head wise) now.
I did what you have done and started a thread, I read through a lot of the other members own experiences, I feel that really helped, just to know I wasnt alone in feeling the way I did. Also getting it out on here, being able to vent about it knowing they would understand and not judge me or think me ungrateful.
So please, share how you feel, there are quite a few memebrs here who know exactly what you are feeling and going through.
To be honest, sometimes I still get rather emotional and still feel "ripped off" in a way, like I missed out on something that "should" have happened, but its no where near as strong or as gut wrenching as it was.
Big hugs hun, I can only imagine how hard it would have been havng your DS in another room for 4 days. xxx