When I read your post I felt like I was reading about myself. I assume you've had the baby by now, so my reply won't be that helpful...

I have a large low lying fibroid which according to the dr prevented natural birth, and was in the way of a bikini cut cesarean. I had a classic cut, starting about 5cm above my belly button, down to my pelvic bone (or thereabouts). My baby was fine, a beautiful baby girl. She is now two and brings us great joy.

To this day I become depressed when I think about her birth. Even if it is true that I couldn't have given birth naturally, and that I needed general anaesthetic and all the rest... there are some things that were really important to me that I could have fought for (eg. immediate skin to skin contact with my baby, waiting for labour to start before doing a cesar rather than booking it in in advance...). No one can change the fact that I wasn't there for the birth of my own baby, but some things could have made it A LOT better than it was.

So, my advice, even though a little late, is to explore all your options, don't just take the advice of your obstetrician he/she doesn't tell you everything. Look into having a doula to help you with your birth plan, even if it is a cesar birth plan. Not sure where you live, but 'birthbuddies' might be a good place to start searching online.