i felt the exact same way. i remember having stuff explained in the antenatal classes, and it made me feel so glad that i was having a homebirth, so i kept thinking "this will never happen in our situation", so i kept myself ignorance about the c-section stuff, as i was so focused on our homebirth. then in the situation, the homebirth had to be transferred to hospital via ambo, then EVERY medical intervention you can think of, was done.
So after 29 hours of labour, i was being asked to make decisions, using jargon i had no knowledge of, for 7 hours of medical intervention, before i was finally badgered into an emerg c-section, which again, when i was asked "do you want x or y", because i had not educated myself about c-section stuff, i had no knowledge of the jargon, the implications of my choices (made at the 37 hours of labour mark, so i was sooo tired).
I really wish i had learnt about all potential parts of having a baby, instead of ONLY about homebirth. I wished my midwife was there to guide me thru the hospital part. so many decisions (so i could have had an empowered emergency c-section). i didn't have a clue and was so ignorant of what they were talking about, and so exhausted.
i wanted the first thing to touch my baby, to be MY hands, or her daddy's hands. For her, to do the breastcrawl on my body, to get her first drink. Warm up using my warmth. But her first touch was forceps, vantuse, hands of strangers, then resus equipment, then the ICU isolette.
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), no forceps or much assistance at all was required.
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